六月九号，原本是你人生中的大日子，可是切成了你永远都无法庆祝的生日。刚才慢步地走着回家，望着不同国度的天空，心里唱了首生日歌送给不知身在何处的你。脑子浮现了许多我们曾经拥有过的日子，六年了，还是让我无法忘记你那痛苦的脸孔，你所对我们说的最后一句话，你的那一道害死你的疤痕，更是让我痛得泪都流了出来。每当想起你时，很想跟你分享身边的每件事，很想面对面地跟你说我现在一个人身在世界最有名的寂寞城，很想跟你分享这六年以来所经历过的日子，更想了解你在另一个世界的生活啊！每一次都自我安慰说‘有机会的’！阿安，生日快乐，安息吧！
来了新加坡差不多将近两个月，这里的生活除了闷之外，还是闷；除了寂寞之外，还是寂寞！除了省吃俭用之外，还是省！计算机在我寂寞时成了我的好朋友。人家手上都在按着现代最流行的PSP，而我手上切在按着比老土计算机还要潮流的手机计算机！多希望全都是正数的数额，老天哪会对我这么好啊？每天还不是为了计算负数而按到手都快发暖，头也快疯了？！？！天啊！为什么老天要安排我跟计算机做好朋友啊？？？现在的我终于明白为什么人会说老天爷是不公平的！
五月，是本人记事本里最多人生日的月份。前几天，拨了通长途电话给其中的一位朋友，顺道了解一下对方的近况。聊的当儿，从每一个的话题里无意中发现，你变了很多，我也变了少许。多希望电话里的人是几年前的你！我猜想你也想说多希望现在的我是几年前的我吧？！？我没责怪你，因为我明白是时间，环境把你训练成今天的这个样子。无论如何，我还是会珍惜我们曾经拥有过的美好回忆。朋友，生日快乐！
Special day for me. New life has been started. Here im right now -- SINGAPORE. April fool… 0000am, 1st time lying on the new bed, was listening to the 988, suddenly one of the 4896 friends’ name was appeared through the DJ, end of the message only I knew that he called the DJ and send regards to US who are in London, Australia and Singapore. Tears dropped again after listened to the message from DJ. Touched coz there is a friend who is always be there to support and giving encouragement to us whenever we are needed. Endau ar, I know u will drop by at my blog. Anyway thanks again for everything u did for me currently. I will work hard on it. I know u will say don’t ‘tuch’ so much, but still im touched! 1st day step into the new office life, new environment, new colleagues, new field for me to explore, new challenges are waiting for me…but will try my best to get into it. The colleagues are nice, most are willing to teach, holding our hands to walk from step by step. Will appreciate the chances to gain as much as I can. Inside the mrt on my way back, something pop out from my mind. Just realized most of my friends are leaving to oversea within these half years. Last year peggy and woon were leaving to London Australia Aberdeen ur
为什么
三个同样来自一个家
可是我切比你们特别呢？
想当初
是谁给钱你们去新加坡找工作？
想当初
是谁帮你们办妥到那里的一切？
想当初
是谁帮你们安排好衣食住行？
想当初
你们是否曾经为了这一切而烦恼过？
如今
将要到新加坡的我
总希望会像想当初的他们一样
有贵人的协助
有家人的支持
可是。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。
最近
心情总比之前差
回来的几天
流了几桶泪水
眼泪里的味道
含的不是快乐
而是辛酸可悲！！！！！！！
7/2/2008
1st day cny. as usual, woke up early and had special breakfast and 2nd round steamboat for lunch. visited friends, went to pengkalan kubur(bordering thailand) to visit taiwon and shop around the stalls. cny d town suppose is full of chinese, but in kota bharu its a different case. d town's traffic was damn jam in anywhere, 80% was fulled of malays. sad to see that situation. planned to visit ann cos long time didnt go2 see and pray him. but the traffic made our plan gone. at night, went to gamble at lalat's house. made lots of fun until 230am and won around rm100. wat a big angpow for me.
8/2/2008
2nd day, was planning to have dimsum buffet but cancelled it due to every1 was tired enough and couldn't wake up early. open house at sor lian's house, ate my favourite food...lakso kelantan..wat a nice lunch for me. d rest were drank alots especially the blur abu..now only we know wat to make his stomach becum so big.haha. making fun and laugh non stop again. everyone is really ngarut..evening continue gamble at the same place again,..won few dollar...and continue at nite and again....hahaha...that night met alot of friends..hving photo session..looking forward for the photo from hansim..that nite made me won around rm100 AGAIN...wakakaka...
as a conclusion, cny im so ong..the money i won from friends s lot than d angpow i got...ahhahaha...will continue our 'game' session on this cuming saturday again..happy chinese new year everyone..
刚在收拾房里的抽屉是,找到了一封在中学时一位好友写给我的信.
信里的最后一句写着: 世界不是你看得那么灰的, 人总是看到不好的东西, 而看不到默默在你身边支持的朋友. 要过得开心, 就要看得开, 人家不要给嘛不要咯, 给你嘛thank you咯!
几年后再看回这句话, 还觉得蛮有意思的.
What are you doing now? i know you're far far away from me. but where are you now? how's your life in your own world? Today, is your 5th year of commemoration day. every year of 12th of november, i'll remember every second that we had spent together, and of course i hope you're always beside me. every year i felt so sorry to u. this year is the 3rd year didnt attend your death anniversary and give gift to u since the last time i went there on december 2004. but one thing i want to tell u, it doesnt mean that we forgot u. eventhough u leave us for 5years since 2002, i still can remember ur face when the last time i saw u. Ann, u're always appear in my memory until the day i meet u in somewhere...rest in peace...
小时候，生日最渴望的就是举办生日派对，因为可以收到很多礼物，哈哈！
念书时，喜欢找一大班朋友寻欢作乐，生日要越夜越疯狂越好。
现在，渴望玩具，礼物的时代已经离我很远很远了，对于生日的要求变得很简单，不需要很多礼物，也不需要什么生日派对， 最想要的就是真心的祝福。
也许长大了，经历过的事情越多，越能够体会真诚可贵。 所以，生日这一天， 是个朋友寄来我心祝福的时刻，也是我祝福自己要好好活在当下的日子。
生日当天，听见电话转来家人的声音，和四八九六知己约在一起聚会，朋友的一通电话，一封简短而带有心意的简讯核电邮，一句简单的祝福，一碗淡而无味的鸡蛋面线， 这样，就已经足够了！
每年的生日都会告诉自己，新的一年，新的开始！加油哦！
